“Daddy
tinggalkan saya waktu saya empat tahun tanpa sebarang sebab…” — Sebuah catatan
menyentuh hati oleh Diana Danielle.
Dan
di bawah ini adalah petikan sebenar luahan perasaan Diana Danielle di
Instagramnya...
When
Allah takes something away, he often replaces it with something better
Saya
Diana Danielle, seorang pelakon, isteri dan ibu kepada dua cahaya mata, my
heart and soul, my children. I've appeared on many films, TV shows, hosted
programs, been selected to be the ambassador for many international brands as well as local
brands, ever since I was 9 months old I have been in front of the camera.
Five
years ago I started my first business venture with my best friend, we started
Luxuria Cosmetics, and early this year I launched my cafe Born & Bread and
also started Chemad Raya, a kids traditional fashion wear, inspired by my son,
Muhammad.
It
all seems great, but only Allah knows the journey it took to be where I need
and want to be today. I look back and think Ya Allah, your plans are so
mysterious, we can only plan but Allah know best what we will receive in life.
People
say oh, you're a pretty face, I'm sure it was easy for you in this industry.
Again, I've learned since I was a little girl that nothing comes easy in life.
As
I flashback, and I think about when my parents separated when I was 2, and how
my dad left us and disappeared when I was 4 years old, I used to call out his
name night and day wondering what happened to him.
When
I was little and when my dad was still around, he used to come by with his
Harley motorbike to our little apartment, I would get SO excited when I hear
the loud sound of the bike.
I
remember showing him how I could tie my shoelaces, and I'd sit on his lap and
snuggle up to him. Till this day, it's been 20 years since I've seen him, and I
still don't know why he went away. It hurt so bad growing up, especially
Father's Day, in my school they had the father daughter dance.
What
hurt me most was that my Dad is alive but I can't be with him. I cried many
nights especially when I was around 9 till 13 years old. The time when
daughters needed their fathers most for guidance and love. Maybe I'll never
know why he left but I can accept that now. My kids remind me of him every day,
and I have his pictures to remind me that I once had a Daddy who loved me.
(PART 1)
My
mom... she worked hard for us, we were very well off, she put me in
international school, we stayed in a serviced apartment, went on fancy holiday
trips, but she probably went through a lot of stress at work that in 2001 she
was diagnosed with cancer and underwent treatment for it.
We
lost everything. Our home, our friends, our life.
We
stayed in people's homes because we couldn't afford rent. My mom recovered but
she wasn't fit to work, we had no money at 1 point that we ate 1 ringgit nasi
lemak for months.
There
was a day we only had half a piece of bread and cold maggi. I didn’t go to
school for 2 years (form 2 and 3) and finally told myself this shouldn’t be my
life.
I
got my acting gig when I was 15, worked day and night and I'd go to school in
the mornings. Those were the most tiring years of my life, but we built our
life back to where we were.
But
people said very mean things about us, and talked about why I didn’t have a
dad, said very hurtful things that really affected my mom and she fell ill
again and went through depression. I thought she was going to die from the
heartache. I wished that my dad was still around and promised to work so hard
and become famous that ONE DAY daddy would come back and find me. So I became a
workaholic.
At
the tender age of 16 I wanted to have my own children, coz I was so lonely. I
wanted my children to experience a father's love. I promised to be independent
and able to take care of myself mentally physically and financially.
So
today I am who I am because of all that's happened. I am able to support my mom
and brother, and myself today. I have a loving husband & beautiful
children, something only Allah knows I wanted so badly, I have that
"fame" and still hold that hope that one day he will meet me and I
can hug my Daddy again.
I
have my team of people running the businesses that I have today and my career
as an entertainer. I love my supporters and I love my career. Thank you Allah
for the blessings you gave, and for all the things You have taken away because
I strongly believe that is what's best for me. I thank everyone who has played
a part in helping me reach my dreams, especially mom and dad. (PART 2)
Kata Diana Danielle Tentang
Ibunya
Sebagai
anak tunggal, ada kenangan tertentu dengan emak Diana?
Sesuatu
yang baik, sebab saya sangat berdikari dalam umur muda berbanding anak saya.
Pada masa sama, saya lihat kekuatan wanita mengendalikan rumah, karier dan
menjaga saya. Saya sangat-sangat menghargai itu. Itu kekuatan wanita, dia pikul
tanggungjawab macam tak ada apa-apa tapi dia sahaja yang tahu apa yang dia
lalui.
Mama
tak suka kongsi kalau dia susah. Dia ajar saya berdikari dan jangan bergantung
kepada sesiapa pun. Malah Farid juga cakap beberapa kali, dia kata saya mampu
kendalikan semua. Saya bangga kerana Farid boleh nampak hal itu. Kami mampu
buat banyak benda, kami boleh menyumbang kepada masyarakat juga. Itu suatu yang
bagus supaya anak-anak juga boleh belajar.
Apa
yang anda takut mengenai ibu anda?
Mama
sangat tegas, dia ada banyak pendapat dan dia agak maskulin. Saya rasa
‘terancam’ kerana dia boleh buat semua benda, sangat tegas dan over protective.
Memang takut gila dengan mama. Kalau dia mengamuk, carilah lubang cacing
mana-mana untuk menyorok (ketawa). Tapi dia bukan jenis ibu yang pukul anak,
garangnya di mulut sahaja.
Sikap
ibu anda yang anda warisi sekarang?
Saya
juga kuat dan ego. Kalau saya nak buat, saya akan buat. Saya ada sikap ego yang
terlalu tinggi. Mungkin bukan ego, tetapi hanya mahu buktikan saya boleh buat
walaupun sebenarnya tidak (ketawa). Saya selalu, “Yes, I can do it,” walaupun
dalam kesusahan, tapi saya akan, “I’m fine, I’m fine!”
Ucapan
Diana untuk ibu?
Buat
ibu dan ibu mentua saya… Anda adalah kekuatan saya, terutamanya selepas saya
ada anak sekarang. Tanpa mereka, saya tak tahu bagaimana saya nak membesarkan
anak-anak sendiri. Mereka menyokong saya selama ini, memberi nasihat yang baik
banyak kali. Suatu yang bagus apabila seorang ibu dapat memberi sokongan kepada
ibu yang lain. Wanita patut ingatkan sesama sendiri. Yes, go mothers!
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